Friends Come...and they Go...

 It seems like it doesn't matter how good my day goes, in the end I still feel empty and feel like something is missing in my life. I feel lonely and I feel like no one understands me. Just recently like a week and a half ago I lost my best friend, and even though I may act like I am okay and like its not affecting me, it is. I am hurting badly inside and miss the friendship we use to have. I know people grow up and change, but it wasn't suppose to be like this. Not after 6 years of friendship. It's especially hard when the one person you really want to talk to about it is the one person your no longer speaking to. Yes, I have heard it many times, you have other friends, but you don't understand how close we were and how much I trusted in her only to be let down horribly. I just wish things didn't have to end like this. And I do miss you, but not the new you, the old you.

With Love, Brittany Anne

What if...

I've always heard people say stay strong. In the end everything will work out, but what if you feel like your being jipped of the only good, perfect thing in your world? What if the only thing keeping you together is being taken from you? What if you can feel yourself being ripped apart piece by piece? People say not to think or worry about the what ifs in life, but what if these what ifs are what I am truly feeling right now? Is it okay to worry then? 

Just a little something to make you think about.

With Love, Brittany Anne

43 things girls wish guys knew

#1 When you break her heart, the pain never really goes away.

#2 When she misses you, she's hurting inside.

#3 When she says it's over, she still wants you to be hers.

#4 When she walks away from you mad, follow her.

#5 When she stares at your mouth, kiss her.

#6 When she pushes or hits you, grab her tight & don't let her go.

#7 When she starts cursing at you, kiss her and tell her you love her.

#8 When she ignores you, give her your attention.

#9 When she pulls away, pull her back.

#10 When you see her at her worst, tell her she's beautiful.

#11 When you see her crying, just hold her and don't say a word.

#12 When you see her walking, sneak up and hug her waist from behind.

#13 When she's scared, protect her.

#14 When she lays her head on your shoulder, tilt her head up and kiss her.

#15 When she steals your favourite jacket, let her keep it and sleep with it for a night.

#16 When she teases you, tease her back and make her laugh.

#17 When she doesn't answer for a long time, reassure her that everything is okay.

#18 When she looks at you with doubt, back yourself up with the truth.

#19 When she says that she likes you, she really does more than you could understand.

#20 When she grabs your hands, hold hers and play with her fingers.

#21 When she bumps into you, bump into her back and make her laugh.

#22 When she tells you a secret, keep it safe and untold.

#23 When she looks at you in your eyes, don’t look away until she does.

#24 Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything.

#25 Don't let her have the last word.

#26 Don't call her hot, but gorgeous or beautiful is so much better.

#27 Say you love her more than she could ever love you.

#28 Argue that she is the best girl ever.

#29 When she's mad, hug her tight and don't let go.

#30 When she says she's OK, don’t believe it, talk to her about it, because 10 yrs later she'll still remember it.

#31 Call her at 12:00am on special occasions to tell her you love her.

#32 Call her before you sleep and after you wake up.

#33 Treat her like she's all that matters to you.

#34 Don't ignore her when she's out with you and your friends.

#35 Stay up all night with her when she's sick.

#36 Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid.

#37 Let her into your world.

#38 Let her wear your clothes.

#39 When she's bored and sad, hang out with her

#40 Let her know she's important.

#41 Kiss her in the pouring rain.

#42 When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is; "Who's ass am I kicking today baby?"

#43 After she reads this, she hopes one day you'd read it too.

With Love, Brittany Anne

Younger Days

"Lollipops turn into cigarettes, the innocent ones turn into sluts, soft drink becomes alcohol, kisses turn into sex. Remember when getting high meant swinging in the play ground? When protection meant wearing a helmet? When the worst thing you could get from boys was cooties? Dad's shoulders were the highest and Mom was your hero? Race issues were about who ran the fastest, and the only drug you knew was cough medicine, and goodbye only meant until tomorrow...Yeah and we all couldn't wait to grow up."  If I could go back in time to the days when we had no worries or cares I would. I miss the carefree days when I thought pain was a scraped knee and it couldn't get worse than that. Now I know a scraped knee isn't the worst thing out there, and I wish it was.

With Love, Brittany Anne

Trust

Trust is not just given to you. You have to earn it. If you lose it, it won't be easily given back. Words hurt, and should be chosen carefully. I'm just a girl lost and confused in a world full of hatred. I'm tired of just sitting around watching people closes to me get hurt and picked on. I'm getting tired of acting like everything is okay. When it all comes down to it, everyone is gonna upset and hurt you in some way or another, whether its intentional or not. It's up to you to choose who is worth your tears and pain, and whose not.